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well, hello all. hope your holidays were all you hoped for and more if not there is always everyday to make life what it can be. this new year already holds new and challenging opportunities for me and even if you don't want to know i am going to tell you anyways what they are.
zach is getting married the day before his birthday. that was a shock when i first read his blog and learned about it, which oddly enough was theraputic for me. it has been hard for my friend ashleigh to know just how to act about the whole thing considering her fiance is zach's best friend. akward? i would agree. so, i am glad that she didn't have to be the one to break the news. i didn't feel like anyone pitied me or was trying to spare my feelings either.
it is going to be quite vulnerable of me to admitt this but i have been reading zach's fiances blog and i know i should hate her but she seems quite endearing. i don't want to be her best friend or anything but i have been recognizing her strong desire to glorify God and that makes her closer than a best friend, it makes her my sister. for her sake i truly hope all this works out for her and that zach is good to her. and from all i read he really is.
i am still working on the forgiveness factor of my life. not just with zach but that situation really opened my eyes up to a huge character flaw i have been denying for, well, my whole life. it is different to hate tense situations than it is to easily forgive. my anger at zach errupted this semester and made me honest about my tendency to hold grudges when all they end up doing is holding me.
i still want zach to apologize but i think that is my human nature shinning through. i want to be at a place this october, when ryan and ash get married, where i am able to look zach in the face with nothing but joy seeping from me because bitterness has not hardend me. i know zach and i will not ever be friends. sometimes wounds are too deep for that and i am not sure zach and i would have made good friends anyway. we are so different. more different than we realized but he is my brother and we love and are deeply loved by the same God. I guess that qualifies zach to genuine civility.
i will no longer bore you all. more blogs are on their way. i have a lot to say these days.
peace out.
zach is getting married the day before his birthday. that was a shock when i first read his blog and learned about it, which oddly enough was theraputic for me. it has been hard for my friend ashleigh to know just how to act about the whole thing considering her fiance is zach's best friend. akward? i would agree. so, i am glad that she didn't have to be the one to break the news. i didn't feel like anyone pitied me or was trying to spare my feelings either.
it is going to be quite vulnerable of me to admitt this but i have been reading zach's fiances blog and i know i should hate her but she seems quite endearing. i don't want to be her best friend or anything but i have been recognizing her strong desire to glorify God and that makes her closer than a best friend, it makes her my sister. for her sake i truly hope all this works out for her and that zach is good to her. and from all i read he really is.
i am still working on the forgiveness factor of my life. not just with zach but that situation really opened my eyes up to a huge character flaw i have been denying for, well, my whole life. it is different to hate tense situations than it is to easily forgive. my anger at zach errupted this semester and made me honest about my tendency to hold grudges when all they end up doing is holding me.
i still want zach to apologize but i think that is my human nature shinning through. i want to be at a place this october, when ryan and ash get married, where i am able to look zach in the face with nothing but joy seeping from me because bitterness has not hardend me. i know zach and i will not ever be friends. sometimes wounds are too deep for that and i am not sure zach and i would have made good friends anyway. we are so different. more different than we realized but he is my brother and we love and are deeply loved by the same God. I guess that qualifies zach to genuine civility.
i will no longer bore you all. more blogs are on their way. i have a lot to say these days.
peace out.
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