Heaven

i need you to be my friend

cause i am drowing in the see of uncreativity

and i am lost in the forest of inadequecy.

speak a word to me

to let me know you care

to let me know you share in this age of reality

that feels just like a lucid dream.

cause things are getting so real

that it doesn' seem they're real at all

like i might fall and never ever land.

do you understand what i am saying

how i am forgetting

how it feels to have a dream worth dreaming

like when i was a child

waking up to a new barbie doll

i had it all and i was wiser than i got credit for.

no, it's not depression that is speaking

i am not unhappy at all

i am saddened by this loss of innocence

the loss of maybe's and what could have beens.

why are there no books that get you ready for these days.

i have all the answers now no energy to live them out.

heaven's looking good, not cause i'm suicidal

but because i long for days to

look at my savior's face

knowing love will never end

and i won't have to just pretend

that everything is fine and grand

it just will be.